My name is Nene. I’m the last of three children. I grew up in a Christian home. My mom is very prayerful but she’s strict and wouldn’t take nonsense from us.
I gave my life to Christ at the age of 11. After I gave my life to Christ, I struggled a bit, I wanted to run my life myself. Basically, I sought freedom in the wrong way. I started living out of God’s will. Then, I began to feel worthless. I felt like I didn’t have a purpose here on earth. Sometimes, I would question God and tell Him to kill me because I was useless here on earth. I felt like I had nothing to offer anyone. I also felt I was a dullard. Then, when I failed in school, my parents worsened the situation by comparing me with other kids. As I walked on the road, I walked with my head low, I couldn’t look straight into people’s eyes. That was how bad I felt with myself. I struggled with timidity, low self-esteem.
I rededicated my life to God when I got into University. I was willing to serve God in my fellowship, so I wanted to join the drama unit because I could act. I was advised by someone to join the prayer team, where I could build my relationship with God, then if God leads me I could join the drama team. In the time where I gave myself to prayer, I began to understand my purpose. I didn’t know all of it because God doesn’t reveal everything in full, it takes one step at a time. I began to grow confidence in myself.
I’m grateful to God for beautifying my life. I feel useful, I’ve found confidence in God. With God, I can look all beautiful.
I also want to talk about my brother. For a while, I interceded on his behalf, I trusted God for salvation but it seemed my prayers were not answered. His twin had given his life to Christ but his was very tough. We prayed. My father passed on and we thought that would make him realize himself but he wasn’t moved. Sometime last year, my mom called and told me my brother had given his life to Christ. The truth is that during the time of prayer, I got discouraged but God did it.
I want to thank God because He’s been God, He has touched my life and that of my brother. Now, my brother’s focus is just on God. He is not there yet, but he’s just started the journey.
I want to reach out to someone. Do you feel you don’t have a purpose, do you feel useless or you need God to step into your life? Somehow, someway, you’ve tried certain things in your life but they all failed? You question your purpose here on earth. The same God that touched me, gave me beauty for ashes, gave me confidence, will reach you at the point of your need. I pray that the Lord will touch you and open your eyes to see that in Him, you live, you walk, you have your being, and that without God you’re nothing.
God bless you.
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May 16, 2018
May 16, 2018
May 16, 2018